I can just imagine what Brother Bob will say about all of this!
Basically, a relationship with God is a personal one. The church (of choice) is the vehicle for fellowship and
understanding/teaching/communion and "religion" is a vehicle that can get in the way of that personal relationship if one lets it. Organized religion (to me) has its downfalls and shortcomings. It is YOUR personal relationship with God is all that really matters.
I remember when I was "saved". This was when I quickly realized that belief in Jesus who died on the cross to save mankind of his or her sins is not a magic bullet. You are "born again" and are a baby in Christ. Much learning, praying and asking to be blessed and many years later, I still have my faults, my human desires and continue to be a sinner. I will admit that as it is stated in the bible: "all fall short" and "all have sinned", being saved and being blessed comes with another can of worms that truly makes one scratch their head and wonder. Temptations become stronger but they are checked.
No one is perfect, all have sinned and all will sin. That is the human nature. That God gave us his only son that was sacrificed on the cross and who I believe rose from the dead and was put here to save all mankind from their sins and takes the weight of our sins is a friend I like to have around as much as possible. I feel great to know Jesus walks beside me in spirit.
Religion can be a headache. No one should ever be ashamed of stating they are a Christian or not. Although I have a personal relationship with Jesus...I will say that this relationship is no where close to what it should be because of my stupidity and lack of leaning on him more often.
Personally, I need no "proof" their is a creator. The proof is in my heart. I wish others can have the peace that I have because of this relationship. All you have to do is to ask and keep asking. One thing for sure...while you are asking, it is pretty hard to get in trouble.
I have been a hell raiser. I do things that many (of the church realm) would not admit. I have some drinks, I smoke my smokes, I sin. Does it mean I am a bad person? That is for God to decide. We simply don't know all the answers and honestly, anyone that discredits the idea of a belief system...whatever they choose to believe or not believe, you are my Brother too! I don't make any bones about it..I have f*cked up and will again. I just hope to have the knowledge of the consequenses of those actions ahead of time so I do not get into a situation that will lead me down the spiral of death. Hell is right here baby....anything that can keep that at bay...I am all for it...and believing keeps (in my heart) a tight rein on it.
I cannot convert anyone to any choice that must be made in their heart. Christians have a yearning to spead the good news so others can be at peace as well. All I can do is to tell you it is benificial to be humble and ask YOUR God for forgiveness, mercy and leadership. It is a choice that you can make if you want to. If you don't want to, I am not going to cram anything down anyones neck. Those who have tried and did not feel anything or have a life changing event unfold before your very eyes...well I am so sorry. I really wish it can happen to you..but then again if it does not, then you simply are not ready and it is not for me judge one way or another. One thing that is common. Everyone I know that has accepted Jesus as their personal saviour has improved their lifestyle SIGNIFICANTLY and have a sense of peace and freedom from negitivity that radiates throught their soul.
Again, it is a PERSONAL situation. It is indivigual. Many do not want it and if it is their wishes, then I still love you. Drugs are for sick people and all of us humans are sick to the core. Jesus happens to be my drug of choice, we sickos need him...all of him!