Been there twice, Nig
it's really a disorientating and devastating event for a while. Truly, I understand and feel for you in this moment.
Dust yourself off in time, make sure she's getting adequate B vitamins (
especially Folic Acid) and get back to it when you both heal. And, you
will heal even tho it seems hopeless now
Ciao, John (parent of an exceedingly healthy 5yo on the 3rd try
)