Ryan, I haven't had the chance to meet you yet, but I know the company you keep and they speak well of you. Having lost my mom in 2013 and my brother to a tragic auto accident on New Year's Eve this year, I can empathize with your loss. There is nothing, however, to prepare anyone for the loss of a life partner so suddenly and in the prime of life.
God Bless you and your family and may God's Grace carry you the coming days, weeks and years. You will get through this - you are not alone, but a part of you will always look back. First with grief, and then with love and gratitude for having had the blessing of someone who undoubtably loved you so much to spend a lifetime with you.
Godspeed, Don Bingaman